Tired and exhausted,
Feeling useless and pointless,
Always in Pain.
I question my existence
"Why am i here?"
"What is the point of me being here?"
"Have i ever done anyone any good?"
I never expect to get an answer to any of my questions
that would be stupid
I wonder does anyone else feel this way
Not just sometimes, but all the time
Not just when something goes wrong,
but when you look in the mirror
and start to think about yourself
do you ever have thiese same thoughts?
if you do... I'm sorry for your pain...
And mine

I don't want to go, but still at the same time, I do
It isn't fair
Leaving my friends isn't fair
Every thought I have about leaving makes me want to cry
The strange knot in my stomach
The vomiting sensation
If I go I'll be so lonely
I'd try to fit in
and end up feeling kinda phony
Please let this all be over soon
let him disappear from my life
to be forever forgotten
so to move it along
I pack my bags
and prepare to leave
Please jus end it ALL!!!
It's time to move.

my heart pounds
as another corner i round
i hear him calling my name
i don't want to cause anymore pain
my soul is drained
it starts to rain
i fall subject to the beating
the beating of the rain
the beating of my heart
the pound
of my feet on the ground
i feel like im about to drown
i stare down
down another dark grinding path
i go down
i fear what i might find
i hear screaming
someone's being tortured
i hear it
i feel it
i want to cry
when i see whom it is
i find out what the screaming is
it is my soul being ripped from my body
i feel lifeless and dead
but i still move
i move to do as i'm told
i am just a slave